fuckfuckfuck

[Serenity]

I just got off the phone with my dad, and I'm so upset I can harly bare it. *cries* why must everyone around me ruin things???? good things???

Why must I be the mature one? the adult? the parent? Why do I make better decisions? why ????

All I've ever wanted is a father, someone to love me. to be HUMAN! not a fuckin child. I'm an awesome fuggin daughter i must say. I'm a full time college student, I was a cheerleader, honor roll, on homcoming court, played basket ball, FOR HIM!!!! I pay for EVERYTHING i am responsible............. what is wrong with me????? I've tried so fucking hard to make him proud, to make him grow up and TRY to be a father. WTF?

he just got his 4th DUI and is on house arrest. he left in the middle of the night last night "to go buy a pack of ciggs" YOU CANT LEAVE ON HOUSE ARREST DAD! he's going before the judge tom for that and violation of probation, and hes gonna do time. AGAIN! *screams and cries*

I just wanted a NORMAL family with a normal dog and a normal house........... and now I'm gonna spend my saturdays ONCE AGAIN...... visiting my dad ion jail! fuck fuck mother mother fuck fuck!


*god: please make my dad normal**

[- 3l3v3n -]

awwwwww sweetie I am sowwy!!!
I am praying for you!!
You are the best you can be! dont look at like that, and just remember when you have a family that you will be a perfect mother!!!
You will fullfil your dream! You are beatuiful and you know this and you have Michael, and me and all of your other friends here to help you through this!!!
*kishes all over you*
Love You!!
~Sara~

[euphoric]

you can't help who was chosen to be your mother or father. what you CAN help is the person you are because of it.

[chewy23]

i am so sorry hun....keep ur head up and smilin.....u know i am praying for u and become a better person.....

plur
chewy

[Genisus]

i love you baby. i am here if you want to talk! MWAHZ

[Sunshine]

Originally posted by euphoric
you can't help who was chosen to be your mother or father. what you CAN help is the person you are because of it.

I couldn't have said it any better. That is SO very true.

[DJ NOI]

Don't worry Meg, your a KILLER chick and my week has been as bad as yours... We'll get throught it...:)

[Serenity]

I love you! please hurry down here..........I miss u:( I need mah best friend

[euphoric]

i think u need this (http://plurplanet.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=29991)

[lilcupcakesjo]

Damn!!!!!!!!!!! Sounds like you might of had a similiar upbringing like I had. My dad left when I was 1 month old (never met him) and my mom has schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder. Try coming home at 16 from school and having your mom start throwing your clothes on the front lawn because she thought you were out to "get her." My mom never asked anything of us; didn't seem to want us to succeed in life or want better for ourselves. Her plan was to have children and have us take care of her forever so she would never have to work. She actually got angry at me when I wanted to move out on my own at age 18 and threatened to never speak to me again. I worked from age 14 in a fernery, farm and later waitressed. I gave her all the money I made until I moved out at 18. I worked 45 hour weeks and made straight A's in school. I was on the track team, honor society and did volunteer work but she never seemed to be happy. The thing you have to learn when you get older is that sometimes you have to distance yourself from all the toxic things in your life. I no longer speak to my mother because she is verbally abusive and would bring me down with every conversation we had. Don't let people tear you down like that. It really sucks that some of us have parents who are more like children while we seem to fulfill the role as parent. For years and years I questioned why in the hell I could not have grown up with one normal parent. These things only make us stronger though and you have to realize how many values you have actually gained with your unfortunate circumstances.

Johanna

[Serenity]

I'm playing it right now and crying ............ you remembered :(

[euphoric]

you think ive forgotten....but i really havent forgotten anything.

[Serenity]

<------------- u made me smile! me either.......... I never forget:(

[euphoric]

*whispers* crab legs

[empress]

Megan -- You know I'm here dude.. and you know that I understand. I'm gonna give u a call tomorrow to check up on ya okie? <3

[Serenity]

Kristin: *wipes tear* of DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM~ :)


ginny: I heart you dear! :) your always there. lol~

[Forrest]

i totally and completely feel you more than you know. and to tell you the truth. no1 has a life as you wish it would be. everyones parents are fucked up. so i feel you hun....i feel ya:(

:banghead: :cries: :hugs:

[euphoric]

Originally posted by Serenity
Kristin: *wipes tear* of DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM~ :)


lol liam said that yesterday about my car

[steffachu]

I'm sowee Megan. :( *big friendly embracing hugz*

[MiXie]

Originally posted by Serenity
I just wanted a NORMAL family with a normal dog and a normal house........... and now I'm gonna spend my saturdays ONCE AGAIN...... visiting my dad ion jail! fuck fuck mother mother fuck fuck!


*god: please make my dad normal**

Sweetie, there is no such thing. No matther HOW picture perfect a family may seem, there's always some underlying problem that they're trying to hide from the world. At least you have the strength to admit your father has a problem (as does mine) and you seem to be dealing with it. Everything will turn out for the best, and you seem strong. So just stay strong. :)

P.S. And NO ONE'S dog is normal! :D

MiXie

[Jadea]

Sorry u are goin thru this right now..but even though u are havin hard times u know..i think everything will work out for the best in the end. Also u know..i think that ur situation has made u more prepared for life.....i don't really know u..but i have met u a couple of times and the vibe i got from u was that of a strong woman and sweetheart..i think that without the obstacles in the past and present i don't think u would be who u are today and u def are more prepared to fight the BS that will come along in the future. hope u understood what i was saying.

[Gargoylee]

I love you baby... I'm here for you if you need me... PM me...

:flowers:

[Jimmy Mac]

I dont know you but im sorry you have to go through im sure youve heard it all before but ya you can have that perfect family just switch roles and make sure your there for your children and you can have that dog and house and family just learn from the past and never forget how you felt that way you know what you dont want your children to feel when that time comes.

[cosmobaby1]

*prays for Serenity

[Serenity]

you guys just made me cry. I just got off the phone with my brother, my dad called him on his way into court nd the only thing he said to tell me , was that "tell sis i love her, and i'll be there for her wedding" THATS IN A FUCKING YEAR! wrar!


but thank you everyone for your kind words, I VERY much needed them this morning :confused:

<3 meg

[Sunshine]

Originally posted by lilcupcakesjo
Damn!!!!!!!!!!! Sounds like you might of had a similiar upbringing like I had. My dad left when I was 1 month old (never met him) and my mom has schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder. Try coming home at 16 from school and having your mom start throwing your clothes on the front lawn because she thought you were out to "get her." My mom never asked anything of us; didn't seem to want us to succeed in life or want better for ourselves. Her plan was to have children and have us take care of her forever so she would never have to work. She actually got angry at me when I wanted to move out on my own at age 18 and threatened to never speak to me again. I worked from age 14 in a fernery, farm and later waitressed. I gave her all the money I made until I moved out at 18. I worked 45 hour weeks and made straight A's in school. I was on the track team, honor society and did volunteer work but she never seemed to be happy. The thing you have to learn when you get older is that sometimes you have to distance yourself from all the toxic things in your life. I no longer speak to my mother because she is verbally abusive and would bring me down with every conversation we had. Don't let people tear you down like that. It really sucks that some of us have parents who are more like children while we seem to fulfill the role as parent. For years and years I questioned why in the hell I could not have grown up with one normal parent. These things only make us stronger though and you have to realize how many values you have actually gained with your unfortunate circumstances.

Johanna


All I can say is...WOW

I'm really very impressed by the fact that you were able to succeed and do so well for yourself despite such a horrific childhood. You're obviously a very strong person. Mad props.

[*kitty*]

live life to make yourself a better person, don't live life for everyone else. parents included. just because they are parents doesn't make them right.

[Serenity]

true, but that doesn't change the fact that children want parents to love them :confused:

[- 3l3v3n -]

love you baby! :(

[euphoric]

megan i completely know how you feel! remember what i told you about my dad!

[Serenity]

Hopefuly kristin, you will have an amazing story to tell me when you get back from canada, and i'll be waiting to hear it :) :) and if not, theres always collect!:)

[euphoric]

yeah i hope so too....pray for me like you said you would! ;)

[Serenity]

will do, have an amazing story, so i may share and laugh :(

[StAyTrUe]

Serenity,
I don't know all that well but every family has their fair share of problems. My dad kicked me out 3 days after my 18th birthday. I had no where to go, literally, until my loving boyfriend took me in. I went through my whole life of having things put on my back, things that shouldn't be my fault but were made out to be my fault. I believe you are a strong person, and you being a strong person probably comes from your father. All I can say is be a better person about it. Don't let your father fall out of your life completely. Even though my father and I have our differences, I'd be damned if I could ever live without him...

MiXie is right...NO dog is normal;) Keep your head up girl!

-dani:D